Where to turn?
Where do I go?
Help me, save me, I want to shout out these few words!
But if I do...
Will you turn me away?
Will you simply not care?
Will you not look at me?
I love you!
I want to tell it to you so much!
But if I do...
Will you hurt me, as I have been hurt before?
Will you snub me, as I have been snubbed before?
I am afraid.
Of you, of myself.
I hate myself for this, I cannot deny.
But! Please!
Read the feelings within my eyes!
Look at me as I am laid bare before you!
See me for what I am,
not for what I pretend to be!
I pretend!
All the time, lying, forced smiles, deceiving!
It's all my fault!
I know! I know!
Please don't remind me...
Love me...
Don't hate me,
Please, don't hate me!
See past my smile,
See past my face,
Look into my eyes,
And see what's there to see!
Please! Look at me!
Look at what I am,
not what I pretend to be!